pyrexia~

today.i was asleep for almost 24 hours.

why?

pyrexia! got it from seorg jejaka hampeh yg juga demam pada hari sebelumnya..urghh..

gram tol.got myself under the blanket for da whole day!!

solat pon duduk je. pgang phone pon terlepas. betape lemahnye diri ini.

however! terase diri disayangi ketika sakit.huhu..

Mj buat bubur. die lah org paling kerap dtg tgk aku ari nih.nak dekat 10 kali kot die msuk bilik nih! haha..

nabel buat sup ayam.

mai letak kain basah di kepala.

rakan yg lain asyik menjenguk keadaan diri..

huhu...

terima kaseh semue!!

i love u~*wink*

1st year MBBS.END.

alhamdulillah...

tamat la sudehh 1st year MBBS ku!!

dah setahun dh ek?? xterase pulakk... time flies tooo fast~

weeehheeee....

seronok...tapi xseronok..why??

sebab result xkuar lagi!!

ptg td,kuar result viva...

hmm....after waited for almost an hour, dato' ghani pon kuar dr board room...membawa paper2 yg ade namelist for bdk2 yg kene sit for viva..

berdebarrr dowhh...

viva tu ape?? ok, basicly viva nih is an oral test...test utk top up markah kite yg kat border line nih..

border line? alaa...mcm bile kite ats pgr nak fail/ lulus...aaaa...tu la border line...

tapi!! jika name tidak disenaraikan dlm list viva, ade 3 kemungkinan!

1- ko mmg la dah FAIL! xde hrpn dh nak topup2 nih....

2- ko dah lulusss...syukur alhamdulillah..senyum cikit..=)

3- ko distinction! fulamak!!!

haaaa....itu la punca nye aku seronok TAPI xseronok...agak2 nye aku yg nombor brape ek??

perghhh...serammm siot...

effect kalau fail;

- balik malaysia nih, kene study. what the &^%%^????

- kene buat supplement exam right after naek cuti

- IF supplement pon xlepas, hah! REPEAT LAH KAU SETAHUN TUH..bertilam bantalkan buku2 subjek yg ko fail tuh jek. ape kejadahnye? ingat best ke?? member2 laen sumer dpt masuk 2nd year taw x.urghh...

MEDIC IS LIKE A NO NO TURNING BACK ROUTE.

so marilah kite same2 mendoakan kejayaan bersama...sedih x kalau kawan yg same2 struggle dgn kite tym 1st year, tetibe xdpt join kite masuk 2nd year? sedih kan kan kan???

p/s; utk mereka yg dpt viva tuh, tahniah...nape nk sedih sbb dpt viva? patut bersyukur taw...sbb atleast, dpt taw, yg anda ade chance utk lulus. alaa..viva, sumer lulus punyer lahh...mane ade org pnah fail viva..~ all the best!

syahdu ramadhan...

wahai ramadhan,

kali ini kita bertemu lagi..

alhamdulillah..syukur Allah..kerana telah mengizinkan aku utk berada dlm ramadhan utk ke sekian kalinya....

syahdu...aku di sini...bersendiri...menyendiri dlm bilik kecil ku...

menerima kedatangan Ramadhan yg mulia...

mereka bertarawikh di bwh...blok D...aku di sini,hanya mendengar takbir, zikir, munajat,hanya melihat jemaah itu dari tingkapku...

takdir Allah...xdpt ku sambut puasa pertama di sini...xdpt ku

bertarawikh pertama Ramadhan kali ini...(phm2 je lahh)

tapi aku masih gembira...dpt ber Ramadhan bersama teman2 seperjuanganku di sini..walaupun xdpt bersama keluarga utk 2 minggu puasa tahun ni....

aku bersyukur, masih punya teman yg xpernah lupa siapa Pencipta...siapa tuhan mereka..

masih ada golongan yang Allah tempatkan di kalangan kaumku...golongan yg masih berdiri pada jalanNya yg lurus...Alhamdulillah...xjauh aku dari Islam ku...agamaMu wahai

tuhanku....

moga Ramadhan kali ini, jauh lebih bererti dr Ramadhan ku yg lalu...

moga Ramadhan ini, lebih mematangkan diri yg jahil dan hina ini...~

p/s: sorry la skema skit this tym...hehe

UB city.

smalam, saye,nabel,mai n mahir..ke UB city mall...huhu..=) ye, i know.mesti korg tanye.nape br skrg pegi?dh almost setaun dok sini kan...haha...tu lah..namenye xhabes jelajah bangalore lagii...=p
kononnya nk mkn tasty tangle la...n actually nk tgk la mall yg sehebat pavillion tuh..
jadi,lepas exam biochem, kami terus ke sane..( al maklumla, final paper beb!)

al kisah...
setibenye kami disane, KAGUM.
kagum melihat seni bina dlmn nye..'' wahh...mantapp''-first thing that came out from my mouth...huhu...hebat lah wei...jln punye jln..lagi '' wahh...xsangke...''
this place name BANGALORE, the silikon city... ade-

- burberry
-salvatone ferragamo
-louis vuitton
-kimaya
-moschino
dan mcm2 lagi..

bkn nye jakon ke ape...tp xsangke...india hebat jugak ye...=)

ok, jd kami pon ke tasty tangle...wahhh lagi sekali...'' die bukak lagu mlayu la!''
tmpt die lawa gilerrr....ok,order punye order...mkn la....mcm2 kitorg order...xingat dunia tol...
skali, sampai2 bill, Ya Allah! tekejot kejap...tp bile pk2 balik..mmg patot pun...order mcm dinasour...haha!!

mahal mmg mahal..tp berbaloi ooo...mknn fusion malaysia, singapore, n indonesia..wahh...sedap!!!


seterusnye, mahir- '' eh blum solat asar la..nak solat kat ne nih..''
alamak...UB city kedai sume BERRRIIBBUUUU.....xkan la nak pura2 shopping and then tumpang fitting room n then solat...haha..mmg la klaka...

jadi, we came out with an idea..kitorg naik auto...g garuda mall...haaa...kat sini kedai2 yg mampu la sket...dpt la pura2 try baju n then solat....huhu....

pas solat, jalan2 la kat garuda...SALE masih berlansung!! wahhh....shopin punye shopin...
lapa balik la pulak!haha...dinasour kan???huhu..

and guess what??we went to UB CITY again!!!haha!!gile kan???
mkn laghi!!lalala...

know sumting.we spent almost rm300 for dat day on food ONLY!!wakaka...seronokk...~=))

satu kisah berlalu...

hari ni, tamat lah kisah anatomy dlm first year ku...(although actually anatomy is the basis of everything in a doctor's life)...haha...

well,i didnt feel that it was the best..but i tried...

insyaAllah...PASS.tu penting!!

kalau dapat more than that, rezeki dr Allah la tuh...;)(besh gak!) huhu....

all i can say right now, pray for the best!!

perjuangan masih belum berakhir. masih ade yg belum selesai.

PHYSIO! BIOCHEM!

moga dipermudahkan segalanya~

when and where?

okay people..
i got another 2 weeks for my professional exam..
how does that sound to u?

''COOL''?OR....''R U NUTS???''

i'll go for the second one..crazy huh??
yeah2...anatomy,physiology,biochemistry...in 2 weeks time??????
OH MY GOD.

the Q is...where should i begin?
and the problem is, WHEN should i start?

yah, i know..i know...
i've been spending A LOT of money these few days...ye la...mane taknye...its SALE man! paham2 jela sale kat india ni camne kan...HEAVEN. tp kan baru hbs exam.ape salahnye!( 2 weeks longggg,MENYEKSAKAN!)

but back to the topic.when and where?
haiihhh...dah start melepak ni yg payah nak start balik nih...smalam je dh hbskan 3 movie.;p petang tu g benetton.day b4 nye g tgk wyg, n got myself baju esprit and kasut soles.
berjuang tasha!(hehe...ayat poyo)
but somehow,bile flip through my answer sheets dat day, i felt like i could have done better. but still, alhamdulillah.thank you Allah. He always knows the best..>.<

so,ape lagi?get back on ur track lahhh!!!start with something simple.then it will bring u to bigger things.

''nothing is easy. only u,urself who can make things easier.others can only talk not DO.''

there's a future worth fighting

attention or ignorance..

growing up without a father through out my life,made me an independent girl today..*tough enough* i suppose...with a mother who is very strict on me..we are not like those 'lovy dovy' mother-daughter relationships...we dont really share things inside our heart...so,being the only child fo 15 years, i used to keep my feelings to myself....

sick,sad,mad,happy...all alone inside...its just i do share it with my nenek sumtyms..;)

well, being a very lonely girl throughout my childhood,made me realize...
how important a man is to a woman's life...

she can never stand alone....although most of the times she could...
like who i am today, is becoz of my mother...
but still, i need that someone...
someone who could be there with me..through my hard and easy times...
through sadness and happiness....
i know, im not as great as mother...who could do everything on her own...

i want attention as i hardly get it from mother through out my life...
that's y sometimes i tend to be soo demanding...(i know its bad)...but i want it badly...from the one i love..

today,im 20..
everytime i feel neglected i'll turn to someone...someone who i call my 'bestfriend forever',who means more than the world to me..that SPECIAL SOMEONE..
but sometimes,expecting too much,brings me down.that leads me to a worst feeling of being neglected...;(
sometimes he just couldnt be there for me when i need him most...
cant even do simple things that i KINDLY ASK.
the more i know him, the more i hardly understand.

sad.yeahhhh....get so em0 right now...
y cant we be just like others.HAPPY.UNDERSTAND.

hujan,matahari dan pelangi.

Alhamdulillah, hari ni habes dah exam theory 3rd IA.

PENAT

tu yang aku boleh kate wat mase nih.ye lah.mane x benj0l pale otak aku nih.straight kowt exam seminggu.xde BREAK LANGSUNG.

gila kan?memang gila.

but still,
THANK YOU ALLAH. THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO MY PRAYERS.

mungkin bukan yg terbaik.tp cukup baik untuk aku hadapi exam kali ni.
exception utk paper 2 biochem!
mmg salah aku la.xbace kan.
yang lain2,insyaAllah pass.

everytime bile aku down, aku ingat satu ayat kat dlm Al-Quran nih,

'Manusia hanya mendapatkan apa yang diusahakannya'

and thats what made me keep going on.thank you Allah for giving me strength.

skg nih,all i can do is keep praying for good results.

plus,focus for the upcoming FINAL PROFESSIONAL EXAM.fewhhh...plus,next week ade practicals...aiyooo....


so,what i did today???

td pas exam,terus kuar.g GARUDA MALL. tgk transformers dgn member2.
da best part is,exam habes,SUMMER SALE GILER2.but i end up finding nothing that catch my eyes.
then,kitorg pon g la mkn2.tgh2 mkn tuh,terase nk tgk harry porter pulak.
tapi,tgk list,harry porter dah sold out.
dgn gatal nye,nk jugak g tanye pakcik wayang tuh,

'Excuse me sir,is Harry Porter still available?'(padahal dh terang2 tulis SOLD OUT!)haha...

suprisingly,ade!and mmg cukup2 7 org...wahhhh!!!rezeki!terus aku beli 7 tanpe pk due kali.haha.

yang anehnya INDIA nih,tgah2 tgk movie tuh,after 1 n half hour xpasal2 die behenti. break la konon.pekejadahnye ntah.dah la tgah climax!tp pas 5-10 minit,die sambung la blk...

whatever it is, TRANSFORMERS BEST TAHAP DEWAAAA....haha...tp harry porter kurenggg skit lah....slow skit flow die...

owh ye.INDIA dah masuk musim winter.GILER SEJUK AH! tidor pon menggigil.nk amek wudhu' pon kalau boleh nak guna air panas.(gedik giler)...haha...
but somehow,i like the weather...cold wind...cool day =)

langit biru semakin gelap.

kalaulah STRESS tu ade kayu ukur,
aku pasti bg 10/10 utk keadaan aku skrg.

tp semue org nmpk aku ok.
aku happy.
aku xde pape.

aku xpunye mereka seperti di semashur.
utk mendengar segalanye.
utk lapkan tangisan air mata.

fikiran aku bercelaru.
hati aku gelisah.
risau,gundah,segalanya.

xsiapa dengar.
skalipun mendengar, hanya mendengar.
xmerasa yg sama.

aku takut.
GELAP.SEDIH.
kebelakangan ni,sensitif sgt.
senang nanges.(bile sorg)
senang emo.
senang stress.

ARGGHHHH....BERI AKU KEKUATAN YA ALLAH...BANTU AKU..

nenek, sehat cepat.
jage diri.
mkn ubat.
tunggu asha balik.nenek janji.

exam.tlg.tlg.jgn seksa aku.
permudahkan bagiku.

rumah baru environment baru~

alhamdulillah...dah sebulan ddk d umah baru...

seronok...sbb kali ni,rase btul2 mcm umah sendri...

saye dok sebilik dgn mimi.seronok bilik dgn die.syukur Allah, temukan aku dgn tman yg baik spt dia...sempoi orgnye.kami punya cita rasa yg sama.

puas kitorg hias rumah...especially bilik.

satisfaction is when u achieve what u imagined.

apparently,our room turn out to be as we expected.PUAS.sungguh pun pnat.BERGADOH dgn org local to get the best price.walk here n there from street to street.
but yey!

we'r happy together.saye selesa.die selesa.kami GEMBIRA.

INDIA.best.FOOD.PRICE.FLOWERS.even hotel 5 star pon,bleh bargain. senang kate,INDIA=BARGAIN!
except!people here suke kata,
''2 MINUTES MAM.TODAY MAM.OK MAM''

but end up LATE!i mean REALLY2 LATE...grr....

sampai satu tahap tuh,i was so mad,until i said,
''IM GONNA BURN UR SHOP IF U DONT COME!''

ye lah...mane xbengang..tunggu dari pagi sampai mlm...like i have no other things to do!
and guess what, they came right after that.=_= naseb baik...if not,mmg aku bakar je kdai tuh..~

owh ye...exam.exam.FINAL EXAM.+3RD IA...
im tryin...keep on tryin VERY VERY HARD FOR THE BEST...
mungkin ape yg aku impikan tuh..terlalu tinggi.sampai ada sorg 'sahabat istimewa' ni kate
''ala,aim pass je tasha.xpyh susah2 aim jauh.yg penting pass.''

tp bagi aku,salah ke aim jauh2??bukan setiap yg berjaye tu,bermula dgn cita2?usaha la sebolehnye..

Allah pon kate...
''Manusia hanya mendapat apa yg diusahakannya''

janji Allah...aku yakin...aku usaha...tapi Dia lebiih tahu.apa yg TERBAIK untuk aku...

aku cuma perlukan kekuatan...tu saje...supaya aku dpt berjuang....dan terus berjuang...aku xkesah org nak kate ape...mase depan aku.cita2 aku.usaha aku.

tik tok jam berdetik...

MasyaAllah...dah seminggu cuti...buku2 itu....masih belum ku sentuh...

Ya Allah,aku hanyut...dibuai arus IT...facebook,u tube...

anatomy,physio,biochem??tak satu pun dlm list...

subhanallah...jgn biar aku leka begini...ini bukan rentakku...bukan caraku...

sungguh, aku gelisah tiap kali aku kikis masa itu menjadi debu...

nafsu...nafsu....

Ya Allah...final makin dekat...apetah lagi 3rd IA...

jgn Kau duga aku dgn pena MERAH...setidaknya,izinkan aku tersenyum melepasi pintu first year....

teman,bantu aku..

doakan aku...

ingatkan aku....

strong enuff i hope..

hari ni...hari lahirku...
alhamdullillah...syukur Ya Allah...aku masih dipanjangkan umur untuk bernafas di bumi Mu...
namun...hati ini...tak sesenang selalu...puas aku pikir...
akhirnya Dia jawab persoalanku...

perkara yg paling ku takutkan dlm diri...
sering kali menghantui ku...
KEKESALAN...
yup,'regret'..

eg0 itu akhirnya menggugurkan ku...
lemah rasanya iman bila ku terima khabar itu...

pa, im so sorry....
for never being there...
when u need me most...
im d only daughter u have...
but IM NOT A GOOD ONE...

IM SO SORRY..

pa,hold on...
dont let me go...
dont leave me alone..
i need u...
i love u...
though i never let u know i do...

im 20 today pa...
i didnt grow up in front of u...
but really
IVE ALWAYS WISH TO C U
pls...HOLD ON..
i want to be there...but i cant...

Ya Allah...
berikan aku kekuatan...
sungguh...aku bkn anak solehah...
utk Kau kabulkan doa2 ku...buat ayah dan ibu...
namun...aku yakin...
Kau sentiasa mendengar...
berikan aku kesempatan...
utk ku kucup tangan nya biarpun yg terakhir...
jangan biar aku sendiri...
menatap kisah silam...
menangisi kesunyian diri...

REGRETS,
shasha~

football match..?

okay...today,i spent my time for my precious friends...i mean,supporting them entirely...

recently,there has been a tournament..obviously,football tournament...organized by M.S Ramaiah people...u know...ada trophy n title stuffs...huhu...

hm...today's match...was really2 AMAZING...trust me it is...TOO AMAZING until i got myself kicked by the fast moving ball right onto my abdomen...seriously i tell u,its EXCRUCIATING..-_- it hurts me until now...topak, luckily u said sorry..haha...if not, i'm gonna kick the same ball with the same speed right onto ur abdomen one day...haha!=p

but anyway, it was a TOUGH game...our opponent,wasn't as 'stupid' as we thought...they were GOOD...i mean,seriously good...after all the psycho's we did...they still manage to play well...but one thing...arghh,....i HATE that 'minah baju kuning'....sooo *****....tension btul aku dgn die...shouting all the time like a SIREN...LOLS...oh yeah!and the stupid refree yang sgt2 xadil!!cehh!!

hm...btw,keep it up boys...bg pinjam kejap la that trophy...lama dah depa tak pegang...haha...next year ragut balik kayy....=)
anyway,u guys did WELL!CONGRATS...ade hikmah di sebalik setiap kekalahan n kemenangan...!jgn putus asa!LAA TAHZAN~

Happy birthday Jlo dear~

jlo, td bile call ko...aku hepi sgt2....especially bile aku tanye, knal x sape ni?

ko jwb, '' mestila knal....ni bdk yg tertinggal bus kat mais ngan aku tuh kan?''

wahh...terharu sgt bile ko ingat kenangan kite...n bile ko ckp ko tgk2 gmbr aku..makin rindu aku kat ko...xsangke ko simpan gmbr yg muke aku diconteng marker pen tuh...haha....konon nak wat jahat tym aku tdo...last2 kantoi....tp xpe...seb bek tu birthday aku...aku maafkan laa...haha...xkesah pon....

jlo,aku rindu sgt kat ko....bile ko dah betul2 sehat....aku nak bace blog nih tau...

jlo, ur one of da greatest friend i've ever had....ko xpenah marah aku...xpenah ckp buruk psl aku...
bile aku susah,ko slalu ade tman aku....aku mintak maaf...sbb slalu wat ko jd bahan...tp best la!ko bahan terbaek aku!!haha...

jlo.dtg la india...aku rindu giler kat ko....aku bersyukur sgt...ko dah makin sehat....=) jage diri baek2 ye....kitorg sume xde kat situ nak tgk2 kan ko...tp ko sentiase ade kat hati kitorg....

khas utk jlo-

Sahabat
Mengapa kau pergi
Tinggal aku sendiri
Kau tahu ku tak sanggup

Sahabat
Ingatlah kau selalu
Jadi yang terbaik
Walau kau tak di sini lagi

Sahabat
aku rindu padamu
Datang walau sesaat
Ku ingin kan kau hadir

Aku disini dan menunggu
Diam tanpa dirimu
Kau tahu ku tak bisa
Beranjak terbang dan melayang
Tanpa dirimu ku tak bisa
dan kembalilah

Oh aku disini dan menunggu
Diam tanpa dirimu
Kau tahu ku tak bisa
Beranjak terbang dan melayang
Tanpa dirimu ku tak bisa dan kembalilah

Aku disini dan menunggu
Diam tanpa dirimu
Kau tahu ku tak bisa
Beranjak terbang dan melayang
Tanpa dirimu ku tak bisa dan kembalilah

Kembalilah oh sahabatku
Kembalilah...

hepi birthday jlo~

buku2 ku....

adoihhh...dah seminggu dah xstdy btul2 nih...giler ah tasha...cari nahas kau nih...nnt fail jgn slhkan org laen ea...nk exam nnt jgn nk nanges2 xstdy lg ea...

tasha!!!!!bgn la...dah2...cuti seminggu...is ENUFF...get back on ur track...=_= grrrr...
tensen2....aku masih mahu cuti!!!time of recovery must end by today!no play2...serius dr tasha serius!!!

damn2...what hv i done this whole week...leka...quran leka..semua leka...buang mase je pandai...

Ya Allah...bantu aku...
kembalikan aku ke jalanMu..
kuatkan hatiku...
untuk ilmu dan agamaMu...~

bantu aku!!!!arghhh....3rd IA is gonna kill me...kubur kata mari~~~~~~waaa!!!!

rinduku...

Di hati kecilku
aku punya seorg lelaki
sering kali aku teringat wajahnya...
namun ego ku menghalang...
salahkah aku menjauhkan diri?
bila memikirkan sejauh mana aku di hatinya?
aku tak pernah membenci
aneh...
mengapa ya?walau tak dipeduli,
aku masih mampu menyayangi...
mungkin kerana dia lelaki pertama yang aku kenali...

ayahku,
sungguh aku tak membesar di depan matamu
tp ketahuilah,
aku sentiasa membesar dlm redhamu...
aku rindu tp aku kecewa
bila kau tidak hadir di saat aku pergi
jauh meninggalkan tanah air..
ternyata kita berjauhan lagi..

ayahku,
aku tak pernah menghina mu
aku tak pernah memandang kesilapanmu
aku bangga lahir dari keturunanmu
aku tak malu mengaku kau ayahku
tapi sungguh
aku sedih bila kau malu berhadapan dengan ku

ayahku,
nantikan aku
kembali dengan ijazah di depan matamu
kerna aku berjanji pada diriku
untuk menjadi pewaris kebanggan keluarga..
biarkan mereka mencerca,
aku TETAP anakmu
kau TETAP ayahku~





"Dengarlah bisikan hasrat hati
Yang merindu menjelma kembali
Ingatanku yang telah lalu
Bersama berjanji sehidup semati

Kini tinggal hanyalah kenangan
Dikau hilang di mana gerangan
Tiada berita kudapati
Hanya ingatanku di masa yang lalu

Kasihanlah kepada ku sayang
Tiap hari jua wajahmu terbayang
Ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Seandainya kita tak lagi bertemu

Dengarlah bisikan hasrat hati
Yang merindu menjelma kembali
Ingatanku tetap bersemadi
Walaupun kau kini telah mungkir janji

Kasihanlah kepadaku sayang
Tiap hari jua wajahmu terbayang
Ampunkan lah segala dosaku
Seandainya kita tak lagi bertemu

Dengarlah bisikan hasrat hati
Yang merindu menjelma kembali
Ingatanku tetap bersemadi
Walaupun kau kini telah mungkir janji~"

#aku mls stdy seminggu nih...i know i know!its not a right thing to do...but,erghh...seyesly...2 weeks of exam,drives me crazy...i need time for recovery!!dah la xde cuti!arghhh....3rd IA ni pulak masuk sume yg dah pnah blaja...its like,ur whole 1st year medic exam...=_=waa!!!!stress but still killing loads of time...

stress atau cool?

Xana(tukang kayuh)-tasha(pembonceng)-MJ (yang mengejar)

alhamdulillah...exam theory paper for 1st IA dah pun hbs....but still! its not the end!! sungguh...xtipu...kali ni aku lebih tenang...masih ade rase takut...tp xsehebat dulu...

petanda baik atau buruk bile kite kurg rase takut??
same ade xpeduli...atau mmg ketenangan tu hadir dari Allah?

percaye lah...'kekuatan hati itu letaknye pada sejadah dan Al-quran...'
bkn music,bkn movie...

of all the papers...biochem nearly killed me da most...fewhh....may be tu dugaan dr Nya...mungkin ade hikmah...x semua yg kita usahakn membuahkan hasil...sbb Allah pasti ade hadiah yg lebih manis...

pape pon...usaha dulu....br tawakal...kalau mls usaha, tp bile nak exam, doa lebat bkn main....result tentu xselebat usaha...haha...btul kan kan kan?

neways, exam mmg stressful...sape yg tak tuh mmg gempak lah...cume yg membezakan kite, how we manage our stress..up n down emotions...wahh....medic is not easy...but we people take it easy....natijahnye...haa...phm2 lah kan...

surah an-najm;39

"dan sesungguhnya, manusia hanya akan memperoleh ape yg diusahakannya"

renung2kan...=)

bread puding!!!!@ cake~

ngeee....im so happy!!!! i made my very first cake ever!!! its my first time doing this pastery thingy after living for almost 20 years inspiring oxygen, expiring carbon dioxide....hohohoho....=)
thanks to MJ who assisted me a lot!!!!wahhh....best2....all this time i ve been wanting to do this....tp xde peluang n xde org nak ajar...MJ!i love u lah!!ngeee.....although its just a 'kek kukus'...but still!!!it satisfies me!!>.< weee.... ok,this is what i did...

7 keping roti ( koyak2 kan )

1 packet fresh milk

7 sudu gula

1 bijik telur

1 sudu kecik esen vanilla

optional accessories; pisang/ raisins thats all!!

huhu....kacau sume sampai sebati....n kukus for 30 mins!!!! sejukkan...then hidang!! *best served bile sejok kan dlm fridge* >.<

taraaaa.......~selamat mencube!!!

cloudy day

i hate my day....kinda bad day...erghh...u c, i woke up in the morning with dark clouds on my head...forced to go to class...duhh...sleepy...first, it was biochem class...sleepy sleepy...wuaghhh....damn2...then i took TWO LARGE cup of coffee...no more sleepy...stressed with the stupid upcoing exam....=.= y exam?? y!!!!

went to library...to settle down unfinished homework...grrr....gross anatomy....plus physiology....damn damn....drive me crazy! almost had no lunch...but i ate few spoon of rice...

then rushed back to library, to finish up physiology...

2.30: went to practical...inspect,palpate....bla2....lucky kozec...haha....3 girls...palpated him...=p thats what doctors do!

one more bad thing happened...grrr....knoe wat, i was suppose to sent that GROSSY thingy to the anat department today...date line- 4.30...which means b4 the office is closed....

UNFORTUNATE me...i FORGOT to send the book! n it was 5.30 when i realized that! omg....panic....butterflies in my stomach...wat am i suppose to do???

so, i ran to prof suda's office...made that ''muke kesian'' saying that i really2 forgotten to send the book but i brought it with me today!LUCKY ME...prof said ''its ok,put it here with me.I'll let Prof Kulkani know later...'' fewhhh.....there goes my expiratory reserve volume...

there goes my day...with the third cup of coffee...(large one; barista blast)...wat a cloudy day with 3 large cups of coffee...im bloated with caffein!!!!

LOADS...+ half boil egg

Salam...lame sgt rasenye blog ni ditinggalkan...betapa diri menahan nafsu online...huhu...

hm...skg nih, keje bertimbun2....stress la jugak...=.= mane taknye...record book je dah 3...gross anatomy dah kene lukis 10 gambar bleh tahan susah die...bkn stajat lukis...malah color! adoih....benda2 ni je dah mkn waktu study ku....

haa...tu la benda yg stress kan diri nih!....xtau mcm mane nak stdy...penat pulak tuh menyiapkan benda2 nih sampai lewat mlm...tu pun xsiap2 lagi...waaaa....pressure nyerr!!

exam lg sebulan....4 minggu jerk...Ya Allah...Engkau saje lah yg tahu perasaan hambaMu nih...byk benda lg nk catch up...paling risau skg nih, BIOCHEM...masyaAllah...ilmu Mu bagaikan lautan...xmampu aku renangi...terlalu LUAS....

kawan2...doakan la tasha mudah dlm segala urusan ye...terutamanye study...huhu...

owh,btw! nak share satu perkara yg menarik...smlm,ade la due org sahabat serumah ku...punye la semangat nak buat ' half boil egg'....aku pun tolong la dgn care memberi steps utk dilakukan....

setelah 10 minit, dorg pun dgn 'excitednye' memecahkan telur tu...hampa!telur xsampai separuh masak pon..haha!!!kesian sahabat2 tuh...malangnye air xcukup panas...NO WONDER LA!

aku pun dgn konon supportive nye berkate...

aku : tak ape...buat la lagi...telur kan byk...

Xana : alaa...sedihnye....ok lah...try lg skali...

aku : cube panaskan air tuh gune dapur gas...jgn lupe timing pulak...

Xana : baik!

setelah 20 MINIT!

Xana : Alamak! dah 20 minit...lebih 10 minit la pulak!

=.=

akibatnye, telur tuh jd 100% masak...mcm telur org kawen!! haha....namun! xana tetap xpatah semangat! still jugak try AGAIN...

this time, mmg 10 minits...guess what,akhirnye!!!jadi jugak half boil egg yg diidam idam kan....ahaha.... hampir 10 bijik telur terkorban utk cubaan menghasilkan half boil egg dorg...haha...dpt jugak azza hilang kan kempunan die slame 6 bln...

papepon...congrats xana n azza!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aku wanita~

'' aku wanita aku kaum hawa

yang memang rapuh hatinya

aku wanita aku punya cinta

selayaknya manusia...

apakah salah jika aku menyinta?

apakah salah jika engkau ternyata?

pilihan hati...

belahan jiwaku ini......''

Walau sekuat mana pun diri, walau sekeras mana pun hati,

Apa yang kau lihat, hanya lah luaran ku..

Ternyata aku masih seorang insan

yang kau gelar WANITA..

aku masih punya hati nurani...

yang kenal erti duka

yang mampu mengalirkan air mata....

kerana fitrah Nya...

aku diciptakan sebagai kaum hawa...

If u look inside a girls H.E.A.R.T, u would see how much she really cries, u'll find secrets hidden, best friends, and lies...but what u'll see da most is how hard it really is to stay STRONG when nothing is ever right and everything is always wrong..